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Every year is a bad year | Thursday, January 3, 2013
We agreed to countdown together.
I was so excited about it but I didn't know it was one sided
The way he messaged me and the way he acts when we met were so different.
I was feeling lost.
I tried to make him happy and let him decide everything.
When I tried looking into his eyes, he avoided me.
At that moment, my heart sank.
I had no idea why because I din even do anything wrong.
Afterwards, he spent most of his time checking his phone, making calls etc.
I was sad, really sad.
I almost cried but I kept it in.
He knows I was upset but did nothing
And so we were in mental cold war for a while
When we reached esplanade, I couldn't take it anymore.
I went to the toilet, cried my heart out and shouted at him through SMS lol
As in I caps my smses
I asked him to go if he's so reluctant to spend the day with me and he really did..
Alone, walking along the streets and crying non-stop.
Found a spot in the crowd, cried while waiting for fireworks.
Couples all around and I start to wonder why
why why why?
Isn't it normal to spend that day with someone you love?
Unless he doesn't...
Then I start to think, think and think...
5...4...3...2...1....
I see fireworks in the sky
People all around were screaming in joy, hugging, kissing...
But only me still tearing non-stop
I looked at the fireworks and smiled
They were beautiful :)
After that, I spent nearly an hour walking in the crowd.
I calmed down while walking and stopped crying, finally
But I was so scared of the *******
Anyway, I survived
Still, I wish you were there..
You have your reasons but I have my feelings.
Can you please take care of it?
